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A Tribute to My Little Man

A Tribute to My Little Man

I know we are a health, fitness, and sports training company but I like to write about a variety of topics that affect many of us throughout our lives. This commonality helps to unite us in a world so seemingly divided. The following tribute is dedicated to my little man Tiki or as we always called him Papiman or just The Man. This is something for all of the animal lovers out there that have, had or are thinking about getting a pet.  

As I write this my heart is broken and I am totally crushed inside. Saturday, June 2nd after 12 beautiful, and amazing years together we had to say goodbye to our little man. He was very sick and although we treated him the best we could he was still getting worse and we did the last thing we could do to help him. We know in our hearts it was the right thing to do but it doesn’t hurt any less.

We grew up always having pets. Cats, dogs, a ferret, and fish. I always loved them all. However, if you are a pet owner and you are fortunate enough there will always be one that you have a special bond with. Papiman was that one. I remember the day we imprinted like it was yesterday. We had put a collar on him a few weeks after we got him just in case he got outside. I was working on my computer when all of a sudden I heard this huge ruckus in the other room and these painful whines. I jumped up and ran into the other room and there he was with the collar pinned around his bottom jaw so his mouth was bent wide open and he was rolling around like a madman. He had tried to get the collar off and got his jaw stuck. My stepfather Tony also came running as he heard all the commotion. We tried to get the collar off but the clip wouldn’t let go so I ran and grabbed my knife and slid my hand under the collar and the knife in between so I wouldn’t cut him and sliced it off. He spun out of my arms and stared up at me and when I looked back at him that was it. Our instant connection. He was my boy from that point onward. The unconditional love and companionship a pet provides are one of the most incredible experiences a person can have. Unfortunately, this also makes their passing a very devastating one.

The grieving process is a brutal one. For me, I felt compelled to write Papiman a letter to help me cope with the landslide of emotions that are involved in losing a beloved pet. It kind of makes me feel like he is still here beside me and in a way celebrate his life. It is a very emotional post as I am an emotional guy but if you continue to read you may relate. I hope it will bring back loving memories of someone or a pet that may have passed on and in the end bring a smile to your face. If you still have your pet with you I hope it helps you to appreciate them even a little bit more. 

Only A Few Months Old

Hey My Boy,

Although I can feel you with us still,  I miss you so much already. I kept waking up and reaching out to pet you during the night but your physical body is not there. I wait for you each morning to barge into the bathroom with me but I know it will not happen. Every day since you passed I walk around our apartment and I see your litter boxes, toys, crunchy mats, scratching posts, window seat, food bowls, blankets, towels, and treats but I don’t see you. I keep looking over my shoulder waiting for you to come out but I know I will not see your physical self in this lifetime again.

No matter what was going on in my life or how stressed or challenging it got it was always better when I saw you.  I will miss everything about you, my boy. I will miss, the “paws of death” the “sliding claws of doom”,  you waking me to feed you at 5 am (or earlier). Coming home every day during the middle of the day to feed you and our afternoon naps together, feeling your paws on my hand while we go to sleep. I miss you being meaowy reowy. The excitement you had each day when I came home from work and you ran over to your scratching post and started ”tearing it up” because you were excited to see me. I miss you sitting on your post in the window watching the birds and squirrels or waiting for us to come home. Our “liony walks” as you led me into the bedroom to give you treats. Half and full “floppy mode” as you laid on the floor. The “man cave” under our bed. You asleep on my clothes in the closet. You following me downstairs into the basement and “helping me do laundry” or to change the sheets or watching me workout and playing with the leaves under the yard snowman or dust under the stairs. I miss you jumping up on the coffee table while we were watching T.V., laying with you on the floor, and your warm little body laying up against my side and the soothing purrs while I fell asleep or watched T.V. Just listening to your purrs. Watching you being the “darting dude” darting all over the house like a lunatic. Climbing up the back of your chair. Brushing you every day and how much you loved it. The “TOOTH”.  I’ll even miss cleaning your stinky poo and the litter you trailed all over the house that always got stuck on our feet or in our socks or sheets! And most of all I will miss the feeling I got every time I came home and saw you there.

You are the perfect incarnation of everything that is pure, good and beautiful in this world.

I miss you so much and I love you more than you could ever know. I am so sorry I couldn’t fix you. Rest easy my boy, may your pain and suffering be over. You will always be my little man, my buddy, and my best friend.  I will think of you every day and never forget you. Please visit us often as I will look for you in everything each day.

Keep being “That Liony Man” as we will patiently wait until we meet again!

We Love you!

I write this in remembrance of that man and for each one of us. His passing is another stark reminder of how precious our life and times together really are. Learn to be present and appreciate these moments with your family, friends, and pets. I n a world full of distractions it is easy to lose track of the most important things and appreciate the most important moments. Our physical life on this plane is fragile and short and before you know it we or someone we love will pass on. I believe that nothing ever truly dies but not having him physically here with us now hurts so bad just the same. So make sure to enjoy your time together while you have it.

On that note, I would like to end this post with a beautiful writing that was in the card we received when we picked up his ashes and paw print.

The Rainbow Bridge

There is a bridge connecting Heaven and Earth. It is called the Rainbow Bridge because of its many colors. Just this side of the Rainbow Bridge there is a land of meadows. hills, and valleys with lush green grass.

When a beloved pet dies, the pet goes to this place. There is always food and water and warm spring weather. The old and frail animals are young again. Those who are maimed are made whole again. They play all day with each other.

There is only one thing missing. They are not with their special person who loved them on Earth. So, each day they run and play until the day comes when one suddenly stops playing and looks up! The nose twitches! The ears are up! The eyes are staring! And this one suddenly runs from the group!

You have been seen, and when you and your special friend meet, you take him or her in your arms and embrace. Your face is kissed again and again and again, and you look once more into the eyes of your trusting pet.

Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together, never again to be separated.

-Author Unknown

 

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5 Responses
    1. Cin

      I meant – “I’m so sorry and my condolences for your heartbreaking loss.”
      My watery eyes affected my ability to write complete thought.

  1. Kerry Roche

    Kevin, loss is loneliness – grief is love. I am so sorry for the loss of your pal. I’ve had pets that have crossed that rainbow bridge and the tears still flow as as I read your story we will soon too, be saying goodby to one of our dogs. As you were for me, I am for you. So sorry for you and Susan.

    1. Hi Mama Bear. Thank you so much for your kind words and support. I am sorry to hear about your poor dog. We spent every free second we had the last few weeks as we hoped he would respond to antibiotics and anti-inflammatories but unfortunately, what he had did not have a cure and he kept getting worse. Spend as much time and give as much love as you can to them while you can and most importantly enjoy every moment. It doesn’t stop the pain but we have some beautiful memories of those moments and how happy he was even being so sick. Let’s grab lunch and catch up soon. I miss ya and want to see how you are doing. All my best to you and the family.

  2. Gina

    This is beautiful and a wonderful tribute to your baby! I pray that until you meet again that you feel his presence and energy around you, he may be gone physically but he is there in spiri just keep your senses open to notice. I hope that feeling him being there helps to heal your broken hearts xo

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